Ik heb zo n angst. De laatste 12 uren heb ik met een koevoet geslapen, een fles naast mijn bed en de telefoon binnen handbereik.

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1 Ik heb zo n angst. De laatste 12 uren heb ik met een koevoet geslapen, een fles naast mijn bed en de telefoon binnen handbereik. Ik ben niet makkelijk te verslaan, maar nu is het over. Ik zie geen uitweg meer. Het spijt me lieve kinderen dat ik jullie heel veel pijn bezorg. Alstublieft, ga me nu niet haten. Mijn liefde voor jullie zal nooit verdwijnen.

2 Beste vrienden, kennissen, vage kennissen en de rest. Momenteel staat mijn trein stil en heb heel lang na zitten denken of ik de gok zal wagen om te blijven zitten of dat ik maar uit moet stappen. Ik heb gekozen om maar uit te stappen. In de reis die nu 43 jaar duurt zijn hiervan ruim 34 jaren geweest met veel erge vertragingen, werkzaamheden en ontsporingen en heb altijd gevochten en ben blijven proberen en blijven zoeken. IK Ben het vechten en zoeken gewoon zat. Voor sommigen zal dit als een complete verassing komen maar mensen die mij echt kennen die weten hoe ik me voel. Ik zou niet weten hoe ik het anders zou moeten verwoorden dus maar op deze manier. Ik wil iedereen bedanken voor zijn vriendschap, inspiratie, motivatie, liefde, positieve en negatieve feedback waar ik van heb kunnen leren. Groetjes, Ron

3 I m sorry those who I offended over the years. I m blind to see that I, as a human being, suck. I m an individual who is doing injustice to the world and it s time for me to leave. Please don t ever feel sorry for me, or cry because I had an opportunity at life and that opportunity is over. I m sorry that I wasn t able to love someone or have someone love me. I guess it s best though, because now I leave no pain into anyone. The kids in school are right, I am a loser, a freak, and a fag and in no way is that acceptable for people to deal with. I m sorry for not being a person that would make someone proud. I m free now. Carlos

4 When I was 14, I learned what transgender meant and cried of happiness. After 10 years of confusion I finally understood who I was. I immediately told my mom, and she reacted extremely negatively, telling me that I was a phase, that I would never truly be a girl, that God doesn t make mistakes, that I am wrong. If you are reading this, parents, please don t tell this to you kids. Even if you are Christian or are against transgender people don t ever say that to someone, especially you kid. That won t do anything but make them hate them self. That s exactly what I did to me. My mom started talking me to a therapist, but would only take me to christian therapists, (who were all very biased) so I never actually got the therapy I needed to cure me of my depression. I only got more christians telling me that I was selfish and wron and that I should look to God for help That s the gist of it, that s why I feel like kiling myself. Sorry if that s not a good enough reason for you, it s good enough for me. As for my will, I want 100% of the things that I legally own to be sold and the money (plus my money in the bank) to be given to trans civil rights movements and support groups, I don t give a shit which one. The only way I will rest in preace is if one day transgender people aren t treated the way I was, they re treated like humans, with valid feelings and human rights. Gender needs to be taught about schools, the earlier the better. My death needs to mean something. My death needs to be counted in te number of transgender people who are suicide this year. I want someone to look at that number and say that s fucked up and fix it. Fix society. Please. Goodbye, (Leelah) Josh Alcorn

5 Dear Family: If you are reading this I am dead. I don t want to live any longer with this burden I have. I don t have a supporting familiy or friend for that matter. You think I am wothless and pathetic. All I wanted was acceptance and kindness, but no I didn t get love..

6 Ik heb zo n angst. De laatste 12 uren heb ik met een koevoet geslapen, een fles naast mijn bed en de telefoon binnen handbereik. Ik ben niet makkelijk te verslaan, maar nu is het over. Ik zie geen uitweg meer. Het spijt me lieve kinderen dat ik jullie heel veel pijn bezorg. Alstublieft, ga me nu niet haten. Mijn liefde voor jullie zal nooit verdwijnen.

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8 I am writing this letter to say goodbye and thank you for giving me life. And don t cry I don t want you to be sad I want you to remember the bright colours to remember my personality. I know + have been a pain at the best of times. But I am with nam and grand dad now, So I love you and goobye. Tell Piper that she can have my room. Tell Tasha that I am sorry for everything, sorry Tash and tell dad he is the best.

9 When I was 14, I learned what transgender meant and cried of happiness. After 10 years of confusion I finally understood who I was. I immediately told my mom, and she reacted extremely negatively, telling me that I was a phase, that I would never truly be a girl, that God doesn t make mistakes, that I am wrong. If you are reading this, parents, please don t tell this to you kids. Even if you are Christian or are against transgender people don t ever say that to someone, especially you kid. That won t do anything but make them hate them self. That s exactly what I did to me. My mom started talking me to a therapist, but would only take me to christian therapists, (who were all very biased) so I never actually got the therapy I needed to cure me of my depression. I only got more christians telling me that I was selfish and wron and that I should look to God for help That s the gist of it, that s why I feel like kiling myself. Sorry if that s not a good enough reason for you, it s good enough for me. As for my will, I want 100% of the things that I legally own to be sold and the money (plus my money in the bank) to be given to trans civil rights movements and support groups, I don t give a shit which one. The only way I will rest in preace is if one day transgender people aren t treated the way I was, they re treated like humans, with valid feelings and human rights. Gender needs to be taught about schools, the earlier the better. My death needs to mean something. My death needs to be counted in te number of transgender people who are suicide this year. I want someone to look at that number and say that s fucked up and fix it. Fix society. Please. Goodbye, (Leelah) Josh Alcorn

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